Vocies within
Monday, January 21, 2008
I just seem to have lost my sense of blogging. I dont know what to type. So Im currently just going with the flow.
Was supposed to report to work but I'll cut it short. I ended up in the clinic taking one day mc. The doctor thought that I was pregnant as the symptoms I told him matches those of pregnancy. Gosh!! I just gave him this stunned look.
I had a talk with Mama and Ayah yesterday about relationships. I think I have come to the point where I am already mature enough to talk about this openly with them.
Why?
Coz im 23 this year and I should be finding someone to settle down, shouldn't I? ^_^ Back to what I was saying, I had a talk with my parents. I told them about the guy(s) that Im getting to know and how its gonna boil down to just one and stuff. They even could joke that if I really can't find one, they would matchmake me with none other than my idol since they know his family and all. Gosh!! Speaking of living in the 21st Century. Please.. Oh well, at least a huge burden was lifted off my chest during the conversation we had.
Im beginning to lose faith. Losing faith in myself. Losing faith in all the simple things in life. Not believing that I can achieve what I aim for and those personal goals that I've set for myself.
Knowing that the status has changed, it's driving me insane. Is it the truth? Am I seeing it for real? Oh well.. According to Chubs and Jip, in order to know the ordeal, I've to be bold and ask for confirmation. Am I brave and thick-skinned enough to even do so? Or should I just leave it all to fate and let Mother Nature do her job.
Ya Allah, please give me the courage and strength to face all these obstacles bravely.
Excerpts from Bleeding Love
by Leona Lewis
" ... But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding love ... "
Was supposed to report to work but I'll cut it short. I ended up in the clinic taking one day mc. The doctor thought that I was pregnant as the symptoms I told him matches those of pregnancy. Gosh!! I just gave him this stunned look.
I had a talk with Mama and Ayah yesterday about relationships. I think I have come to the point where I am already mature enough to talk about this openly with them.
Why?
Coz im 23 this year and I should be finding someone to settle down, shouldn't I? ^_^ Back to what I was saying, I had a talk with my parents. I told them about the guy(s) that Im getting to know and how its gonna boil down to just one and stuff. They even could joke that if I really can't find one, they would matchmake me with none other than my idol since they know his family and all. Gosh!! Speaking of living in the 21st Century. Please.. Oh well, at least a huge burden was lifted off my chest during the conversation we had.
Im beginning to lose faith. Losing faith in myself. Losing faith in all the simple things in life. Not believing that I can achieve what I aim for and those personal goals that I've set for myself.
Knowing that the status has changed, it's driving me insane. Is it the truth? Am I seeing it for real? Oh well.. According to Chubs and Jip, in order to know the ordeal, I've to be bold and ask for confirmation. Am I brave and thick-skinned enough to even do so? Or should I just leave it all to fate and let Mother Nature do her job.
Ya Allah, please give me the courage and strength to face all these obstacles bravely.
Excerpts from Bleeding Love
by Leona Lewis
" ... But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding love ... "
[[* Inflections in the voice _
