H a t e M y s e l f
Sunday, September 09, 2007
My emotions got the better of me. Im going through a whole whirlwind of emotions which are pretty much undescribable.
It all started last sunday while I was on my way to a place full of sweet memories. Had to drag Chubs along and incidentally, I found out that it was the exact place where it all happened. Darn.. I even thought of backing out half way and yes, there were some breaking down moments along the way. It drags with me having a gruesome nightmare of him and dearest Pakcik. They met with an accident which almost caused their life. Msged him about it. Well, simply most of my dreams do come true you see. Of course though I did hope that he'll reply, I didn't wait for any.
Despite it all, I kept myself busy with werk. Thanks to the school Open House which I'll be on duty in about 9hrs time. Cleaned, designed and decorated my class, stayed late in school to finish up what's needed and getting home tired so that I can just sleep and think of nothing else.
Emotiond took controlled of my life yst. Despite feeling drowsy and sleepy I watched "Millionaire's First Love". A Korean movie which I took ages to watch. Owing to a scene, I break down there and then. A scene whereby it reminded me all about him. A scene which made me think and miss him even more. I've been rebutting with myself not to get myself engage with such situation but it got the better of me.
With him going to answer duty call soon, will I be able to pull myself up and stand on my two feet again? Or will I keep stumbling down? As said, no matter how far the distance is, I'll not try my best to forget you. Your name will never vanished away from my heart. Insyallah...
[[-- Tears run down my face --]]
It all started last sunday while I was on my way to a place full of sweet memories. Had to drag Chubs along and incidentally, I found out that it was the exact place where it all happened. Darn.. I even thought of backing out half way and yes, there were some breaking down moments along the way. It drags with me having a gruesome nightmare of him and dearest Pakcik. They met with an accident which almost caused their life. Msged him about it. Well, simply most of my dreams do come true you see. Of course though I did hope that he'll reply, I didn't wait for any.
Despite it all, I kept myself busy with werk. Thanks to the school Open House which I'll be on duty in about 9hrs time. Cleaned, designed and decorated my class, stayed late in school to finish up what's needed and getting home tired so that I can just sleep and think of nothing else.
Emotiond took controlled of my life yst. Despite feeling drowsy and sleepy I watched "Millionaire's First Love". A Korean movie which I took ages to watch. Owing to a scene, I break down there and then. A scene whereby it reminded me all about him. A scene which made me think and miss him even more. I've been rebutting with myself not to get myself engage with such situation but it got the better of me.
With him going to answer duty call soon, will I be able to pull myself up and stand on my two feet again? Or will I keep stumbling down? As said, no matter how far the distance is, I'll not try my best to forget you. Your name will never vanished away from my heart. Insyallah...
[[-- Tears run down my face --]]
