I wasn't my usual self yst. I acted lk as if nothing happened wen im in sch. I juz dun want my girlfrens to noe abt it. Bt i noe dat they sensed something strange happening to me. Sori babes, I juz cant bring myself to tell u wat happened.

I was more to myself yst. Cant even tink straight, cant even absorb wat my lecturers said during lectures. I was very patient wif Betty during lab, who sometimes get on to my nerves. Bt yst, i juz let it be. Tried to understand her better n im glad i did. Even during my lunch break, i wasn't in de mood to eat. N i realiased dat i was de slowest to finish up my meal. Sori gals. Had loads of stuffs in mind.

During maths lecture, my tears started to roll down my cheeks. I had to quickly wipe it away b4 my girlfrens see them. Den i saw Adam writing lyrics i guess, lk how he usually do during lectures. Dat gave me de inspiration to write one too. Im not dat poetic i must say bt i tried my best. It may nt rhyme or wat so-ever bt i gave my best shot.

To my dear bestfren, im sori if i've put u in a fixed position. Causing u to hurt emotionally n perhaps mentally too. Bt pls give me tym to cool down cos its nt easy for me to forget wat had happened. Though im de kind who forgives n forget bt.. It juz takes tym for me to do so in dis situation.


Tears started to roll down
The moment i started
To think of you.
Why is this so?
I do not know.

Why do things
Have to turn out to
Be this way?
It's getting ugly
I must say.

I fear of facing
The future truth.
The truth that
Fear us both.

I do not want to see
The end of our 7 years
Of Friendship
Just because of this as
It's childish,
Sorry i've to say.

I'm begging you
Please do stay
Sorry to hurt you
That way.
Please accept my
sincere Apology
I promised that
I'll mend my way.
Wrote it at 4:30pm
(during maths lecture)

Your silence is killing me....